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in mind there is always a person.....cant forget.....thats the reason i been single for so long.....cant hav a new relationship....am i the man who live in the past or i miss the past too much or maybe i juz havent met the right person.....luv is complicated....sometimes is juz purely luck....wish i could forget the past and start my new life....pls giv me strength....i still dream tat u will b bak but actually u r not...how could i still hav this fantasy? am i mad or crazy or problem wit my mind??? for those couple cherish what u hav now, its been like a phobia for me to get into another relationship, maybe i will be a bachelor for my whole life....lol...meet a person, whom juz purely my customer, but somehow he can juz manage to read by my look....his advice to me dun fell to much in gf n bf stuff....lol tats true but what can i do, i m human, i hav feeling.....feeling is hard to control....i ll try....not to think abt her...bless me......to fight this war, well i think this is my weakest part, a person feeling, no matter normal fren, closed buddy, gf.....well juz felt too deep.....xoxo

I was told that if PIGGIES didn't get a partner before Chinese New Year, then all those met after Chinese New Year would be 爛桃花... And then, I read something about star sign few days ago, saying PISCEANS are getting 爛桃花 too... So, at that point of time, I decided that this year will be a 桃花-less year for me, except for 爛桃花...

Honestly, it's not that myself being superstitious or so, but I really think that it's quite true in some ways... It's only about 3 months after Chinese New Year, and there were more than enough of guys came and gone... It made me kinda confused and miserable at times, made me wonder what would happen next... Of course, there were some that I would never consider and also some that I was having some hope in... But, nothing happened...

Maybe, it's really not the time for me... I shall not look, shall not wait, shall not hope... At least for this year... =)

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By the way, today was a good day for me!! I met my DEAR CHERYL again after... I seriously lost count on how many years we hadn't met, it's great to catch up with the girls sometimes... and also, accidentally met ZHANSHEN for a short while, to me, it's kinda SURPRISE for us to not see each other for that long and also accidentally meeting him... It was not a very USUAL thing for the us to do in the past I would say, BUT it's now the thing, it's now the fact...

elo elo.....the stupid pyy is back again....recently caught a flu, suspected is h1n1 cxz have every symptoms mention on the paper....but never mind i am getting well soon. hate my stupid apple juz keep on underline all my words in red....i know i am a chinaman but my stupid apple also cannot understand malaysian english....whahahaha.....my life is still like usual.....bc working all da time.....everyday juz work including sat!!!what a sad life.....even see a pretty chick also got no umph to go after everyday juz thinking working after work feel so damn tired, no clubbing no more bar hopping no more strip club no more crazy nite out....miss my college life......so sad man.....now my best friend is my comp n my xbox...oh ya.....when i was tired i lay on my bed n watch my 42 inch tv when i got bored i play my xbox....when i wanna tok to some1 i go hav a dinner with my old pal....wat a robotic life....hehehe....

I would say this is a NORMAL life for a normal person, but it's kinda abnormal for me... I haven't been living a life like this before in my life... A life for myself... Nobody else... I make all decisions based on myself, my likes and my dislikes, not influenced by anyone else... Does it sound like a normal life to you? I guess so, I was told that a normal person should live like this... But, this is the time where I am learning how to live like a normal person... At the age of 26... HAHHAHAHAHAHA...

Well, I have to agree that a life like this is somewhat NOT SO SAD, as in not relying on anyone, and not disappointing at anything, but obviously, there is nothing too happy about as well... Because I have all the controls, there is no surprise...

It seems like I can live without any friend now, but at least, I need my laptop!! The most depressing moment was having no laptop, no internet was not that bad, but no TVB... OMG!!! That was the killer!!

I met a few new people in my life recently, but I am trying my best to keep a distance away from them, not too close... Just to avoid repeating the history... I just want to be independent... At least, I don't simply dial a number just to chat with someone or just to tell someone that I AM BORED... Because I am already at a stage where I don't need any friend, not even feeling like having a companion...

I am a happy loner... =)

Didn't really do much for Mother's Day this year... Just cooked a simple dinner for the 3 mothers at home, my mommie, my dad's mommie and my mommie's mommie... Oh, and bought mommie a Coach handbag, thanks to WheiMeng for the troubles...

A simple dinner, BAK KUT TEH, some prawns and vegetables... Got rated 7/10... HAHAHAHHA... Not bad lar... =P

Then a Marcle Cheese Cake, INSTRUCTED by me but most of the HARD WORK done by my 2nd younger brother, Timonthy... As I was busy doing the preparations for the dinner and the cake, so I had to get him to sit there to whip the cream, to crash the biscuits... ONE MISTAKE, I didn't ask him to do the wordings but I was SO WRONG to believe that he was good at it...

The result...

SO UGLY!!!! But luckily it got rated as 9/10!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO~!~!~!~! Not bad mar... =P

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