It's been 2 months now that I got back to my single life and I told myself that I had to live a life that I would do everything according to what my heart feels.
Guess I have been doing it pretty well...
I have taken up quite a few new things that I had not been doing for a long long time... I started back my volunteer work in a temple, I started mixing with more random friends without any obligation... And one big thing that I want to do the most, I WANT TO KNOW HOW TO SWIM BEFORE I TURN 31!! DAMN!!
And also, I am back to my free-style relationship... I just want back the feeling of to like a person that I just feel like "Hey, I like you" without considering any other realistic factors... Yeap, I just want to be unrealistic for a while, just a while I promise... As I don't hope that this will go any longer... 一碌碌, I knew that this charming idiot would turn my life upside down, but hey, being unrealistic and just be stubborn right! And I was right, from the start till the end, non-stop torturing, what a torture... And still torturing my mind... Somehow, I am quite regret that I didn't go all out, I am quite angry at myself that I am still too coward, too afraid to get hurt... DAMN! If I were to be a bit more brave and go all out, perhaps I could get something more than this...
It's more than a year now since my last entry. I had a very challenging year of 2012. Full of challenges with my work, my family, my relationship... I had so much stress at work without direction, had so many big arguments at home, I lost my grandmother, I had a bumpy relationship...
Things are not getting any better, but I hope it will get better, soon.
I am still in my longest relationship ever, more than 2.5 years, WOW! I am lucky that he has been putting in so much efforts in our relationship, never give up, being the best listener, my best friend, my best problem solver... A person that can just ease my mind when I talk to him with all my ups and downs. Seriously, I would not know how to live through all these hiccups in 2012 without him... I know deeply that he is the one, he is the one that can give me all I want... But I don't seem to give him what he wants, not even the tiniest simplest happiness that he wishes for. This relationship has been so imbalances all these times. I had not been loving him truly and deeply. Being the same old me, that I am always afraid of EVERYTHING, and the worst thing in me is that I am afraid of FAILURE, that makes a total failure of myself.
2013, a year that I am turning 30, stepping into the BIG 3-0, I would want to learn how to live a life for myself. I will do everything that my heart wants to do... Regardless of failure or success, I will take charge of my life, take charge of my ups and downs, working towards a complete challenging life ahead... =)
All out of a sudden, I thought of my dear magicland here. My bad, that I have unintentionally abandoned you for this long. Ah well, what to do... Life has been busy and boring, thus, nothing much is interesting...
It's 2012, another year has passed and the Dragon year is just around the corner, very near... Hoping that this new Dragon year can bring better lucks to myself, and all of us... A better economy out there, I NEED MORE MONEY!! Money is always not enough ever since I started working back in Malaysia... The pay is just too low for the sky high living costs here in Kuala Lumpur... I miss AUD... But, I am really glad that I am home, the place where I call HOME =)
I shall continue to enjoy my boring, busy, poor... But happy life... =)
Happy New Year~!!! *I must be the only reader now* teeeeeheeeeeeheeeeee~!!!
I am back for a little update since the last entry in January. It's now end of May, it's almost half of 2011 has gone. Many things happened in the past 6 months.
Mainly my job change. After all the challenges and experiences, I am finally now back to my comfort zone. Guess, this should be the place where I am comfortable with the most.
Life is as boring as usual, work and home on weekdays, while FOOD on weekends. Boring, but that's what I like to do, guess this is another comfort zone. *wink*
Age is catching up, nothing much we can do, enjoy it and love it... =)