. : MaGiCLaND : .

everything seems so quiet these days... i just cant seem to get myself adapted into a HAPPY environment... hopefully soon i can get back to my normal life after moving into my new home... there will be more people to talk to and merrier...

i used to be very happy chatting online all days and nights non-stop... but now... my brain seems to be so empty and i have no mood to chat so much... i couldnt stand it when it is so quiet and lonely... when i was alone on the way out, i kept thinking of her and my tears falling... damn, i cant do anything, i can only keep myself busy busy busy, stop thinking, stay in a noisy environment and all...

and there is someone that i feel secured with, every moment that i am with someone, it makes me feeling so comfortable and no worries at all... but whenever i am not with someone, i start feeling miserable, lonely, helpless, i even couldnt sleep well without someone... and i miss someone so badly... although someone has no special relationship with me, someone seems so important to me...

from now onwards, i have learnt a lesson, never wait a minute to say 'I LOVE YOU' or show how much you care to anyone that you love... i already told my family that i love them... i already told my buddies that i love them... and so... i told someone that i love someone too... =)

I hope that...
Ilaria is living happily in Heaven now...
everyone is staying with their loved ones...
everything will be fine soon...

I LOVE YOU!!