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i was hoping to go to SHOGUN for dinner with mom, cousin and auntie tonight after our shopping spree at 1u today...

first, i was told that we gonna leave early, before dinner... 1st disappointment... so we decided to go for the lunch session instead... who knows, it was closed for ONLY TODAY's LUNCH!! *deng* 2nd disappointment...

and i was damn sad and down because of it that i really really really wanna go for it... so i started sending out sms to find people to go with me, all said NO... except for one... i was so happy, happily went to shopping and all... until i made a call to him after everything, he told me... he not going edi... i went like WTFFFFFFFFFFFFF!! i would rather you said NO to me earlier than you FFKed me last minute... 3rd disappointment...

it seems like... i am not meant to go for it...

maybe... we shouldnt force something to happen... when it's not meant to happen... just let it be... i am tired of asking... i am tired of hoping... and also tired of being disappointed... as well as... when there is something which we are not meant to know... better not ask, better not know... because you will somehow be told if you are meant to know... and also, you will also be told that you arent meant to know by other people...