. : MaGiCLaND : .

I think I am having this Midlife Crisis now... Or, is it just another EMO period of mine after so many happy events...

Everytime I tell myself to grow up, be an adult, think and act like one. But, I guess I am just too failed, I am still a kid, a stupid one.  I am still the same old me who doesn't seem to accept any unexpected negative happening in my life. Which is SAD!

I don't know who is the angel and who is the devil, I don't know how to judge, I don't know how to treat people... Humans are the most dangerous creature on earth... It can be fake, it can be real, it can be fake and real at the same time...

Why is it so hard to just be a simple person? Someone who can live with a normal life, no dramas, no politics... Just do whatever...

I always tell myself that I want to be strong, I don't care what people say about me, I don't care what others do to me, I don't expect anything from anyone, I want to be independent... But, in the end, I am just a dependent retard...

Please, I just want to be a nobody, just a simple person, I don't need super attention, I don't need so many fans or haters, I only need some people who can treat me fairly, neautral, I am happy!

I guess, my 2010 near year resolution will be: Be an adult!