That Someone...

August 8th, 2009

Was told that SOMEONE has already appeared, and is IN FRONT OF MY EYES, and was told to stop choosing... I really wonder, and still wondering, WHO would that be... Mainly because, there is nobody that is REALLY showing any action...

Even if there is, I am not sure what to do with him... I am not sure what I want, I am not sure what is it going to be like, I am not sure if I am ready... So many unknown answers, I seriously think that I am just meant to be alone...

Maybe, I have had enough, I have failed enough, I really don't feel like trying anymore...

I have been asked this question lately...

"What kind of a person are you looking for?"

I really don't know... I might know what I want, but I might not know if I really want to change my current life, which I am pretty happy with... I might not be ready for another disappointment, thus, might not even want to hope for it...

But then on the other hand, if I really have to be with that someone, that someone who is already appeared and IN FRONT OF ME... I hope that this someone is the someone that I have been longing for, and he belongs to me...

Why Why Why...

August 3rd, 2009

I don't understand why, I don't understand myself... Why can't things be easier? Why can't I stop expecting? Why can't I accept things easier? Why do I have to care so much?

All these are making my life very tiring, very disappointing...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... When will I start to learn to be nicer to myself as well as others?

Idiot Part II

July 7th, 2009

Well, obviously everyone was waiting for HIS reply, wondering what he would reply, and yes he did reply... But in a super POINT-LESS way... Just like arguing with no point... For example, you are a slut, you are a biatch, you are stupid... Just blabbing childishly... And thus, I didn't reply him again, winning him is just so not proud... BAH...

I wonder what will happen if I ask him "Why don't you slap her to wake her up?" on his wife's death and then telling him it's just a JOKE... And then, "If your wife knew that her husband was behaving worse *OMG THAT OLD MAN USED WORST INSTEAD OF WORSE IN THIS CASE, GO LEARN YOUR STANDARD 3 ENGLISH* than a b@stard, I guess she would chop her head off and be a head-less ghost"... Freaking nonsense pointless argument where I seriously not wanting to reply... Just doing it for the sake of fun here... BUAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA... Because this is MY BLOG!

UPDATE: This Jason even had the same kind of war with a kid... OMG... I think the age gap between them 2 is actually 20 years OR MORE...

Poor Lucky Boy...

July 4th, 2009

It's been a long while since I last cried that badly, but I just did a moment ago... I had never liked any animal, but I recently like this cute little puppy chihuahua, his name is Lucky, he is very cute and good boy... But, there is this big dog at home that dislikes him, and jealous of him, so they fight all the time...

And today... Lucky's eye popped out after a fight!!! DAMN!! IT WAS SO BAD!!!!! The eye ball was all red and blurry, I just couldn't help myself but CRIED!! It really hurts me, ON THE SPOT... I felt so helpless, I was so worried, I felt so pain for him... Luckily, I could get hold of ERIC, a dog lover and he was free and he was just nearby my place... He just came to my house to pick me and Lucky up to go to the VET...

Lucky Boy is so poor thing... He has to stay there for some treatment... Hopefully that everything will be alright... But according to the VET, it should be alright, if not, the eye ball will have to be removed... *OUCHHHHHHHHHHH*

I hate the big dog so much now!! But I felt bad when my dad was hitting him and also chased him out of the house... And he was still outside the house wanting to come home... I hate him for being crazy... But I feel bad for him at the same time... WHAT SHOULD I DO??????????

=(

Wishing Lucky Boy all the best... *love you*

[updated]: Lucky has done with the treatment, he will be coming home soon... =) and because of Lucky's incident... I met a crazy old man on Facebook...

June 28th, 2009

in mind there is always a person.....cant forget.....thats the reason i been single for so long.....cant hav a new relationship....am i the man who live in the past or i miss the past too much or maybe i juz havent met the right person.....luv is complicated....sometimes is juz purely luck....wish i could forget the past and start my new life....pls giv me strength....i still dream tat u will b bak but actually u r not...how could i still hav this fantasy? am i mad or crazy or problem wit my mind??? for those couple cherish what u hav now, its been like a phobia for me to get into another relationship, maybe i will be a bachelor for my whole life....lol...meet a person, whom juz purely my customer, but somehow he can juz manage to read by my look....his advice to me dun fell to much in gf n bf stuff....lol tats true but what can i do, i m human, i hav feeling.....feeling is hard to control....i ll try....not to think abt her...bless me......to fight this war, well i think this is my weakest part, a person feeling, no matter normal fren, closed buddy, gf.....well juz felt too deep.....xoxo