Scary...

August 14th, 2010

Life is getting scarier... Ironic, I would say...

Dear buddy, thanks for the so-called long talk after such a long time, you are still the person who understands me the best, or perhaps, our wavelength is still the same after all... The worries regarding our life, career, relationship... All these are really haunting me...

The worries of the happiness that we are having now is actually not the right path in life...

Miserable...

Target...

August 8th, 2010

Please... Pray for my 500k to come out... And, together with my 220k... At least, let me hit this month's target for once... *Pray pray pray*...

AHHHHH...

August 3rd, 2010

I know, I have been saying that I am very happy in this job... But, I will still have to face the truth...

My mom keeps asking me how is my job and if I can survive with this job, I do not know what to respond to her... It just seems like I am wasting time, where I am supposed to build up my career and make money... In fact, I am just wasting time and slacking, while enjoying the happiness...

Bah... Useless me!!

Tough Yet Happy...

July 24th, 2010

The combination of "TOUGH" and "HAPPY" is very weird, yes, this is what I am feeling...

If you were to ask me, what would I comment on my job, I would definitely tell you that it is very stressful, very tough, the though of giving up, tired... On the other hand, I am very happy that I had decided to quit previous job and joined this current job... It is a bit of contradicting here, I know, but these are all what I feel... WEIRD...

Finally, I am experiencing all the stress that people have been telling me about SALES... From learning the products to convincing yourself that what you are selling is the best, then to sourcing, to communicating with weird people with weird comments, then to convincing them, then to closing a deal, then to go through the very demanding and fussy underwriters, then finally waiting for approval, BUT now it comes to how to make your customers to accept the offer... Last but not least, closing multiple deals does not mean that you have achieved your target... WTF... Or else, all the hard work would go to the bin *YEAY*

It seems like there are more negatives than positives to be in this job, the strange thing is, I am still happy with it... I think I have learnt to be happy for just a little result that I have got and forgetting all the 10 gazillions failures... Just imagine, I face maybe 100 rejections and that would put me into a super duper upset mood, but with the next JUST ONE positive feedback, that will just bring smiles and satisfaction to my face again... It is pretty easy to be happy too, with this job... HAHA...

Hopefully the job will become lesser and lesser stress then I will become happier and happier... =)

Contented...

July 7th, 2010

It's been a month since the previous entry. Things are getting better each day =)

I finally got an acceptance, my first case, first approval, first acceptance!! *hoooray*

And, I am loving my job still, it's stressful but it's fun and you get the job satisfaction when you see the result after all the hard work!! The team is making everything more interesting... Crazy and happening people I would say... We normally have dinners, outings beside just working, which is very balance? HA~

Life is so contented now, loving it, loving ME, loving YOU, loving EVERYTHING... Somehow I just hope that time can just stop at this moment, so that I won't have to worry about things change over time...

I shall be happy if today is my last day... =)