It's 2012, another year has passed and the Dragon year is just around the corner, very near... Hoping that this new Dragon year can bring better lucks to myself, and all of us... A better economy out there, I NEED MORE MONEY!! Money is always not enough ever since I started working back in Malaysia... The pay is just too low for the sky high living costs here in Kuala Lumpur... I miss AUD... But, I am really glad that I am home, the place where I call HOME =)

I shall continue to enjoy my boring, busy, poor... But happy life... =)

Happy New Year~!!! *I must be the only reader now* teeeeeheeeeeeheeeeee~!!!

Mainly my job change. After all the challenges and experiences, I am finally now back to my comfort zone. Guess, this should be the place where I am comfortable with the most.

Life is as boring as usual, work and home on weekdays, while FOOD on weekends. Boring, but that's what I like to do, guess this is another comfort zone. *wink*

Age is catching up, nothing much we can do, enjoy it and love it... =)

Hoping that this is a good new start for myself, especially my new job...

And, hoping that the confusion in me will be gone soon... I shall have a clearer view soon, I hope... Please, go away my miserableness...

Everyone, a good year to you!! Health, career, wealth, love, luck, family, friends...

I have to be very honest that I knew nothing about them AT ALL before this, until one day, my friend shared with me saying that this girl was her junior back in Kuantan, and now amazing her life is now... Then, I started to read more about her, browsing through her pictures, her blogs, even her youtube... I have read many negative comments about her too, but I have to say that FROM WHAT I HAVE READ, I like her a lot!! I do not know how true are they, but I like everything that I have read... I do not care whether those are the real facts, I like her as a CHARACTER...

I love the way she admitted her pasts, even her plastic surgeries and all... I admire her talents, her career and her successful businesses... I like her body and face too, even knowing that they are parts that are fake, but I do not care, as long as they look nice to me... I do not get jealous or angry over people being pretty because of make ups or plastic surgeries... It is one of the ways to make yourselves looking good, rather than people who just sit there doing nothing to themselves and blaming on their originally ugly born faces, or commenting on others who are pretty just because they are fake by putting on some artificial substance...

And, I like her husband too, being very sweet... Again, I might not know the real person, I just like the way how he loves their BABY DINO that much, and being a man who is willing to carry a soft toy with him all the time... That is what I call sweet!! Also the very romantic proposal that he had planned for her!! OK, that might be a bit too LUXURIOUS for people like us, but it is the IDEA and EFFORTS that count!! Imagine, one can replace the advertisement banner with just a piece of CLOTH hanging on it for just that particular moment, nobody would fine you for that I guess... Then, replace with a piece of brochure or paper IN the newspaper instead of ON the newspaper... All these do not cost much, again, the THOUGHTS that count... So, there is no excuse that you are not rich enough to do a romantic proposal...

After watching the video of their love story, there was one sentence that I really like of their love life... They mentioned that they spend their dating life EATING, which I personally like it a lot!! EATING!! YUMYUMYUM!! Especially, they also mentioned that they like to eat road-side-food, which is very simple and sweet, considering that they are FILTHY RICH people...

It is seriously a fairy tale, loving it... I wish them to live happily ever after together...

But, seeing many happy couples around that had already chosen their another stage of life, made me think again about myself, my life, my partner...

Am I or will I be compatible to whatever I have now... Or, will I just lose them anytime soon...

Seriously, I am not confident...

She dislikes when I go out with different guys all the time, saying that it does not look good...

She dislikes when I go out with ONLY ONE guy all the time, saying that I am giving false hope to people... Or she starts suspecting that I am in love, and then she will ask me whether I must have a BF and can not live without a BF and tell me off by saying "You have not known him long enough, be friends first..."

She dislikes when I go out with different BUNCHES of friends, saying that I am very busybody and I do not choose friends thus everybody is my friend...

She dislikes when I go out IN GENERAL, saying that I do not spend time at home and treating home as a hotel...

I really wonder what I should do... In conclusion, I shall just stay at home without any friend or any date...

Wonderful things really do not last, and before I could notice it, something bad have already started their ways...

Guess that I just do no deserve all the good things, as I do not know how to put in efforts =)

Dear buddy, thanks for the so-called long talk after such a long time, you are still the person who understands me the best, or perhaps, our wavelength is still the same after all... The worries regarding our life, career, relationship... All these are really haunting me...

The worries of the happiness that we are having now is actually not the right path in life...

Miserable...