Bangkok…

wahlao… it’s so AMAZING!!! that i think my previous entry about piscean thingie is a lil accurate now… hahahahaha…

hahahahahahaha… at least for the NEW TRAVEL and NEW STUDIES thingie… kekekekekeke… i have decided to take up this Bangkok trip during winter as an ELECTIVE!! yeah man!! this elective is so chun that i need not to attend any class!! how nice if i can have all my electives done this way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it will be a trip to bangkok basically about learning the culture and the business… something about international trade and things… but… it is SO MUCH FUN!!!! and the biggest fun of all is… you can extend your stay after the official trip!! wooohooo… which means it is gonna UP TO YOU and DO WHAT YOU WANT after the trip… and I MAYBE GOING BACK TO KL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahahahahahahhahahahaa~~~ oh ok… i have to control myself a lil bit now… it is just my initial plan… not confirmed yet!! but i am so sure about my trip to thai!! i am going to throw my deposit on monday!! wakakakakakkakaka… *oooppsss* =P

finally i have found my first TRUE HAPPINESS that i seriously smile from the bottom of my heart ever since i came back… i swear this!! =) and i am so damn excited now!!

2005 Piscean…

hmmm… just simply went through some horoscope thingie wanted to get some idea what’s wrong with my year 2005!! and i even thought of looking for a Tarrot card reader… but it is aud40!! hmmm… maybe one day… coz i heard that it is kinda true… oh please, dont say that i am superstitious, i am just trying to find out more ways to lead myself… no harm trying, right?

Horoscope – Pisces in 2005
(http://www.handbag.com/horoscopes)

For you, Pisces, 2005 promises to be a year of discovery. Some of these discoveries will inspire you. They may even lead you to new activities, new studies, new travel or even a new way of life. Others will involve personal discoveries; what you learn about yourself will enable you to understand situations in which you’ve faced difficulties in the past and, equally, what you learn will give you courage.

During 2005, therefore, it’s important that you focus more on the process of learning than on getting things organised. True, at times you’ll be under pressure to make decisions. However, in most cases this pressure will have more to do with the convenience of others than your life.

*p/s:*
after reading this, i was a lil shocked, as my friend did a simple tarrot reading for me the other day… and the cards told me almost the same thing… there were like 10 cards that i had chosen, and most of them were telling me that ‘you are not satisfied with your life’, ‘you are stressed’, ‘you will have a new life’, ‘reborn’… HEY, new life? new studies? new travel? reborn? oh wait… new travel means… travel back to malaysia? new studies means… starting new studies back in malaysia? new life means… i will be HAPPY there? hmmmm… i think this is quite a good one for me… i would love to have all these NEW things happened on me!! =) but… reborn? ahahhaahah… am i going to DIE and back to be a BABY again? *wondering*

我恨你…

我恨你…
我恨你…
我恨你…
我恨死你!!!!!!!!!!
你有什么值得我为你而做吗?
你值得我以泪洗脸吗?
你值得我默默地等吗?
你根本不值得我为你所做的一切一切…
终於, 我明白了什么是”心灰意冷”, 已经无力以对…
我更清楚什么是”浪费”, 因为你不曾珍惜…
也感受到”透不过气”, 真的呼吸困难…

但是, 我就是不懂…

为….. 什….. 么….. 我….. 还….. 是….. 放….. 不….. 下….. ?

因为你, 我的生活变得…
乱七八糟…
思绪混乱…
心不在焉…

我不能再继续了… *headache, cry and take a rest*

依然是朋友

依然是朋友

歌手:宇恒 专辑:宇宙永恒 happy day

情人节的前一天他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念
那一夜我陪着你你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么除了我自己没人懂
可是你你怎么说你知道后是不是从此避开我 oh
我一样难过多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道有些感受我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭不再难过我们还有好大好大的天空
故事的最后我们都不曾失去过甚么
我们依然是朋友

alright, it might be a lil late posting this up as this song has already been very HIT for quite some time… i used to LIKE this song before… and now i am IN LOVE with it!! i keep it playing in my winamp all the time and also singing along with the lyric saved in my Word…

hmmm… why am i so loving it? i dont usually love a song because of IT IS NICE, fullstop. i love it bacause i can FEEL the song… it is communicating with my heart, it reads my mind… of course, not a full story of mine, but it somehow a partial of my story =)

Please judge…

Case 1:

a man, who is the only SON in the family and of coz his parents would like him to get married… but, he is already in his mid age and still doesnt wanna get married and he feels very annoyed when his parents, siblings keep asking him to get married… he keeps saying that he is very sad and he doesnt wanna be forced to do something that he doesnt like to do… and he thinks that it’s not time yet…
then, the parents and siblings are angry, disappointed, sad coz of this…
what would you do is you are the man? and what would you do if you are one of the the family members?

Case 2:

what’s the difference between:
i) A be with B ONLY if they can be forever…
ii) A be with B and doesnt care whether permenant or temporary…
iii) A only wanna be with B for the every next minute…

BigPond…

thankx god!! finally i am having my bigpond with me, i am no longer broandbandless!! yea yea yea!! and i am now using wireless too!! so great!! fark that dial up!! *go away*

i had bad gastric last night whole night and i couldnt sleep well!! so painful, i kept rolling here and there!! shiat!! and i told my mom about it… she is like asking about my foot every single day… and please lar… not much different can it make from a day to a day!! and she asked me to LEARN how to take care of myself… and i told her that i FAILED this subject edi… hahahaha… damn hard weik!!!

Happy Birthday ZhanShen!!

specially dedicated to this 1-day-younger-brother of mine, but he has always been a big brother aka best friend to me… my 25% of friends, meaning VERY VERY important!! thus, I LOVE YOU!!

he is caring, friendly, funny, stupid, noisy, shittie, farked up, smart, hardworking, lame, kind, generous, romantic, cool, tall, huggable, fierce, cute… *list goes on* he has so many goods and bads, and i dont like him but i like him too *what the fark* ahahahahaha…

yea, that’s true, i used to hate him like MADZ!! till the stage that i think… we didnt talk to each other for more than half a year? i didnt even wanna take a glance of him!! even nowadays i dislike him sometimes… still i love him and like him most of the time till we could hangout everyday and night and never feel bored when i was back in kl… we went shopping, eat, play, club, yumcha… i even followed him to his college as i was too bored… and you could see him in my house almost everyday… hey, even chinese new year!! he is just like one of my family members, he in and out of my house ANYTIME, from morning till midnight, and my dog knows him well though!!! sometimes i dont even know that he is actually in my house as he is in my brothers’ room chatting with my brothers… or he is there chatting with my mom… oh yea, so he is my whole family’s friend!!! wakakakkakakaka~~ *feeling so lame suddenly*

and many people like to make fun of both of us… again and again till we are very tired and we dont care anymore… but, here i repeat, WE ARE NOT COUPLE!! but, we are more than a couple!! ooopppsss… no no no, i mean he stands a more important place in my heart… and we CANT be a couple, as things will get miserable and messed up IF the 2 – blur, same personalities, indecisive persons get together, everything will be heading to nowhere!! ahahhahahaa… this is why i have been changing bfs, but not him!! and hopefully we will not do it in the future though…


he knows that i like this pic A LOT, coz ONCE i look SMALLER in size while standing beside him!! he has covered up 30% of me!! kekekekeekek…

here you go, ALL*everything* THE BEST and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

*muacks*

Happie Birthday!!

yeah!! i am now 22 years old edi… haha, should i be so proud of it? i wonder…

hmmm… i think i did make a right choice that i decided to come to my so-called 2nd home – CLAYTON!! as i have my dearest cousins here!! they are my ONLY family here… so i always feel more comfy over here!! =)

hahahahaha… and it was so funny that when they brought me the birthday cake with candle lighted up, and the smoke alarm got activated!! ahahahha… and my mom called me on my 3g mobile while my friend, Wings called me on my Digi mobile *thanks wor, a bit surprised that you could remember that* and he didnt know that i already back in melbourne, he was so surprised… at that moment i was so busy answering both phones and also gotta blow candle… hahahahaha… it’s funny though~~

well, i actually really dont have any celebrating mood since few years back, dont know why… i find it is so meaningless edi, and it is just another normal day to me… but for this year, i DID hope for something… but too bad that it didnt turn out my way… so… well… exected lar!! =) at least i met my ASLING jiejie today… not bad~

i have made my birthday wish… and hopefully everything will be better very soon~~

and oh yea… a BIG THANK to ZHANSHEN, he has THIS FUNNY THING, but he didnt give it to me ler… he only set it as his nick, i guess i was too busybody and i went to have a look and i ASSUME that it is for me!! ahahahhahaha… anyway, I LOVE YOU!!


my PRETTY cake!!


jiejie and i…


3 lovely cousins!!


there you go my cousin-in-law, Nhan!! kekekekek

TA MA DE!!!!

arrggghhhh… martha farkar!! damn angry lar!!!

ladies and gentlemen… again, i twisted my ankle AGAIN!!!!! what the hell!!! why why why…? why is this like that? when can it be recovered? and why is it getting worse and worse…? my godzzzz

i am so sadzzz lar… cant my life be better these days…? all the unlucky things keep happening non-stop… *madzzz*

能与你相爱,我想我这辈子的幸运已经用完了……

能与你相爱,我想我这辈子的幸运已经用完了……when i heard this sentence i juz say WAO, it is so perfect, so touch, so pure, from wat i hav seen….when ppl in luv, they alweays thinks for themselves only, the boys or gals dun 1 2 let the other party go juz bcz they feel so sad, mostly in breakup scene, we can hear that the mostly excuse not 2 break up is bcz 我不舍得, well all of this words r juz on behalf of the party how about another…………..i used 2 be tat, so i know tat feelings……….erm……well after been through a very long tough process i only can realize the meaning of luv, something that juz not about owming it, is juz about givin out, u gave ur luv, ur cares, ur happiness 2 another person…………but in da same times, u dun think about getting back something from tat person…….n u r able 2 let her go when she wanted…….well….i personally think tat 暗恋 is such a beautiful….y? bcz u din even think getting something back but juz cherish her, care her……ok well 2night i also dunno y i would say such things…erm maybe juz bcz of tat words lo….ok gonna sleep good9