Believe…

I always believe in…

1. “若要人不知,除非己莫为” (If you don’t want other people to know, unless you don’t do it) and

2. “有错要认打要企定” (If you are wrong, admit it. Stand still if you are getting punished)

3. “旁观者清” (People who are not involved can judge better)

4. “一个谎话需要用其他99个谎话去圆” (A lie is supported by 99 lies)

P/S: Sorry, I am not sure whether they are the RIGHT translation, anyone wanna help me to make it better, PLEASE do it…

Sometimes people say that I am stubborn that I don’t admit my own wrongs… Usually I will admit it, when I REALLY KNOW that I am wrong… I think I am not that BAD till I do wrong things IN PURPOSE… What I mean is… I do wrong things, but not noticing that they are actually not right… So, I am happy that if you are nice enough to let me know, so that I will try my best to improve myself…

But usually, I don’t EASILY admit that I am wrong, until you can CONVINCE me… OK, I am stubborn… In a good way, because I believe in what I am doing and also not giving in easily… *HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA* sounds like 死鸡 aka DEAD CHICKEN…

I hate it when people tell me that… “You are wrong” with no reason, or when I ask “Why am I wrong”… They will tell me “I don’t know how to tell you”… That is not very helpful and sort of annoying… Or maybe I am too DUMB or too LAZY to figure it out myself… But, I like to listen and know how other people think about it, I love comments… In short, I love *DEBATING* *DISCUSSING*… =P

Sometimes, people tell me that I don’t know how to say things… Yes, I admit that… I tend to say things too STRAIGHT, because I find it very LAZY and TIRED to twist and turn just to make it SOUND NICER… But, who can actually MASTER that? Usually after a few twists and turns, it will lead to another completely different meaning… That will make the idea meaningless… Well, too bad, that is what we call THE ART OF SPEECH, you HAVE to learn how to do it in order to survive in this world… Yes, I HAVE TO and WILL LEARN HOW TO DO IT!! *Grrrrrrrrrr*

Worse still if it is a LIE, you have to keep telling more and more lies to make your MAIN lie SOUNDS REAL… and after a few more lies… it will become “说谎也可以变成习惯,习惯到连自己都不觉得自己是在说谎” (Telling lies can become a habit, till you don’t even notice that you are telling lies)… That is very sad… That’s why I think telling lies is very tiring…

Anyway, what I am trying to say is… People know whatever you do, outsiders can see it clearly, you can’t hide from them… So why waste effort to cover up?

First Day Work…

Hmmmm… Not too bad, but not too good too… Now I know why they said I VERY QUALIFIED… Because really DAMN EASY… HAHAHHAHAHA…

Basically, first day, nothing much to LEARN, besides MAC… Yeay, I get to use MAC, which I find it a bit confusing though… And then, follow up orders, packing orders… Then, some customer service… That’s about it I think… Hopefully there will be MORE and MORE things for me to learn soon… As this is only the first 5 hours training…

There was this girl who trained me, and basically I’m to replace her… But, she only comes in 3 days a week and 5 hours a day… And, I was told to come in everyday… So, what am I supposed to do for such long hours… Am I that dumb that I need to use longer hours? PRAY PRAY PRAY that I will have to do MORE TECHNICAL stuffs… Because, I really think that those things that I did today were SO EASY!!!

Good luck…

NOMORE JOBLESS!!

Wooooohoooooooooooo~~~

YEAP YEAP YEAP!! Finally, I don’t have to sit at home all day anymore!! Oh wait, let me THANK some people first… Firstly, I would like to thank EVERYONE who sincerely wished me luck before… Secondly, which is the most important one, is my Kor!! Thanks kor for the effort of MODIFYING my resume and cover letter… IT HELPS!! You got me my FIRST interview!! And I GOT IT!! wooohoooo~~~~

And then, thirdly, it sounds a bit lame, but still I think it DOES matter somewhat, the THANK YOU goes to my DADDY!! Why? Because all the time I find that “1,4,7” are good numbers for me, I had my house phone number “1714”, my dad’s car plate number “147”, my current house phone number “7141”… And the address that I’m going to work at is “741”… Lame? =P

Oh ya, one more, I need to thank my JIE for giving me such a NICE PERFUME, Amor Amor by Cacharel… Why? The moment I met the person who interviewed me, she said “I like your perfume, smells really nice”… HAHAHAHHAHAHA~~ I’m going to wear that everyday!! =P

Let’s talk about the job, it’s an online baby boutique… So, I’ll be doing some admin jobs there… Although the pay is LOW… But, it’s a good start for me to LEARN and get some experience back… There are some good things about it, that it’s a small company, meaning I’ll have more opportunities to do more other things, meaning ONE-LEG-KICK!! Which is good, I CAN LEARN!! And then, my BOSSES, husband and wife, they are very friendly… And then, I don’t have to dress up like an AUNTIE to go to work, instead, I can wear AS PRETTY AS I CAN… Even T-Shirt and jeans!! CASUAL WEAR!! Hm… It’s located on Glenferrie Rd, near to train station and tram stop… Very convenient…

So, I guess it’s a good start for me… Happy working and happy LEARING to me… Oh, it’s a NEW company, so I guess… Happy growing together too… =)

Boring…

OMG OMG OMG!! Life is so boring without working… I have to think what to do everyday… And it’s even worse when there isn’t any good TVB series around… That’s bad, really bad… Further more, I’m home ALONE all the time, no sound in the house, I miss the FATTIE lar!! Faster come back weik, you will become roundier and roundier if you continue eating and playing everyday in Malaysia!!! Come back and play with me lar!!

I’m too free, I have to think what to play and what to COOK… Yes, cook!! Because cooking can WASTE more time than just going out to eat, which can keep me busy a little…

Else, I’ll be sitting in front of my laptop, refreshing all career websites to check if there is any new job coming up… Awwwww… How sad is that…

I’m even thinking to start a business since I can’t get a job… But, what business should I start huh? No modal how to start a business huh? Damn~~~~~

Let’s Make It Clear…

OK… I seriously wanna do it the ADULT way here and now… As well as OPEN…

Elsa Lim Ben Yee, (BLOG OWNER OF http://pinkybabysdreamland.blogspot.com)

Let’s make things clear and simple here, ok… I’m sorry for the post, I was just angry because of what you said in your previous entry… I seriously have NO IDEA AT ALL what had happened in the past that making you HATE ME FOR YEARS and you are still talking about it after years…

Why not just clean it, shall we? Let’s have all GUTS here and have all NAMES visible here… AND I know you are reading… Since I have the guts, please for you to have the guts to make things clear too, I can’t do all these alone… Thanks…

1st, all the time I THOUGHT that we WERE friends since CPU, UTS, SUNWAY VU… Remember the time I broke up, sad and down and you were there to be my friends, talking to me on the phone all the time… I really appreciate that… And we used to hangout VERY OFTEN, together with PuiShan… Things were all good…

Until you went to Melbourne… We talked less… I didn’t notice why, probably distance… Until I got to know that you actually told Eevoon that how much you HATE me… And I found out… Of course a normal person would be angry, and would think that “since you don’t like me, why should I like you then”… Till then, we both don’t like each other… And things went like that, YES it’s VERY CHILDISH… And, NOW I’m sick of it, I just find it OLD TIME KIDDY FIGHTS should be left behind…

I don’t want to be enemies for life… Further more, we USED TO BE FRIENDS… Can I know WHY that you started to hate me? And can you PLEASE let me know and I can just say SORRY for that? And can you PLEASE also let things go? Thinking that we won’t be seeing each other, just leave it? Or maybe there are some serious reasons that I was so god damn wrong, at least TELL ME… At least I won’t be thinking that WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU anymore? I seriously don’t want this to bother me anymore…

Back to the topic,

1. I can’t remember saying what things that you bought were ugly and then I bought a same one after that, so, what was it?

2. And then, you said that I always think that I’m a CUTIE… YES, most girls do that, right? You were saying that you were CUTE too… So, what’s the problem with that?

3. You said that I like to make friends with only famous people but not the common people… I don’t understand what you trying to say, but YOU were my friend *at least I thought so*, so were you famous? I thought we were just normal ordinary people… I believe most of the people who reading this post are NOT FAMOUS people out there… I believe they are just ordinary human being…

4. Eventhough I’m a bitch, I’m nobody, but does it give you a reason to HATE ME FOR YEARS till bitch about me all the time? I bet there must be a VERY VERY SERIOUS problem deep down under… Please confront…

5. I said that you were FAKE because, you told people that you were from Monash, in fact, you were from VU… OK, so if you are ashame of being a VU student, me too… But what can we do?

5. ONE SERIOUS THING, I know you were talking about me, but I SWEAR I didn’t post that comment in your blog… Reason, I just wanted to be a SILENT reader, a normal 8 poh that wanna know what you will talk more about me in the future… So, will I be that dumb to tell you that I’m actually reading and then now you will probably stop all the bitching about me? Hope you really understand that and trust me, NOT ME!!!

6. Yes, I’m jobless, I’m useless, I’m future-less, I KNOW…

Then, I am going to post a comment in your blog now, to tell you about this post… I will make sure that you will see it there and also here… So, if you wanna make things clear… PLEASE… But, if you don’t want to, that’s fine… At least, I have already tried my best…

P/S: Since you took off that bitching post, I took off mine as well, fair?

Bitching…

Bitching is a FUN activity… I’m sure MANY enjoy doing it, especially GIRLS… Yes, I LOVE IT, I’m a typical girl…

I find it happy and interesting, yes, I classify myself as a 8-poh… I 8 about things that I know, or REAL… And, of course, if I bitch about others, I deserve to get bitched in return… I deserve the treatment if whatever you bitch about is true… I have the GUTS to admit it… I’m all ready to be bitched about, because I’m a normal human being, who does wrong things, and have bad attitudes…

But, if you are bitching about something which is not true… Then, we call it MAKING UP stories… Sometimes, making up stories is not easy, you need to be SMART enough to do it and cover it up… But, if you can’t… We call it LOSER!! WHY? First, you don’t even have the courage to admit yourself, no wonder people look down on you… Second, You can’t even cover it up till bursting your own bubbles… This is what we call DUMB… But, if you are still wondering what has gone wrong or what accident has happened, let me know, I’m willing to point it out to you… But, let me POINT AT YOU AND LAUGH AT YOU first…

It’s ok if you like to make up stories to make yourself LOOK better *Look only, in fact not*, and feel like winning… Just want to feel SYIOK SENDIRI… Then it’s up to you… Because this is too LOW CLASS to win… We tell truth to win… We don’t have to fake it up…

24…

I’m now officially 24!! Yes, OLD!!

Well, thanks to those who really wished me sincerely and those who put in the effort to celebrate with me… THANKS PEOPLE!!

But somehow… There are some disappoitments though… Something about “UK > KL”…

Maybe… I’m thinking too much about the NEGATIVE side… OR… Maybe I have been thinking TOO POSITIVE… Well, in the end, I still think too much… Because nothing in between happened… =)

OK, my wish for this year is… TO GET A FULL TIME JOB SOON!! Just to make myself into a REAL ADULT… Not only OLD…

Let It Be…

Thanks people who really spent their time talking to me… I really appreciate that… Especially my dearest Wheimeng, the Ah Beng, KCNG, and of course my dear kor… And also my STUPID EX, Esmund that who called me in less than a minute after I smsed him that I needed to talk…

After a very DRAMATIC talking and crying session… We decided to let this HIV VIRUS to stay in our relationship, it will happen when it is supposed to be happening… We not are suiciding…

At least, now we are clear that what’s happening, and we also SORT OF know what MIGHT happen… Just like HIV, you won’t know when is your last day… Or, it might not be active… So, we will just let it be…

Confusing Relationship…

I’m back in Melbourne… Been away for a while, back in KL for CNY… Had a pretty busy holiday… Out out out all the time… Till I almost forgot that I actually have a BF in Melbourne… I didn’t call him, I didn’t even have time to talk to him when he called… Sometimes, when I had the time, I didn’t know what to talk to him, so I pretended to be busy… I have been thinking that, since I don’t even care that much, might as well just make it an end…

He picked me up from the airport last night… It’s so cold… Not the weather, but the relationship… It felt so different, not like before… I felt the difference, he felt the difference, we felt the difference… But, nobody wanna make the decision…

Finally, he made the decision… I thought I was hoping for that, I thought I would be happy for the decision… In fact, I didn’t… I felt uneasy… I had a weird feeling… I didn’t want to let go…

What do I want? What should I do? I need help…