in mind there is always a person…..cant forget…..thats the reason i been single for so long…..cant hav a new relationship….am i the man who live in the past or i miss the past too much or maybe i juz havent met the right person…..luv is complicated….sometimes is juz purely luck….wish i could forget the past and start my new life….pls giv me strength….i still dream tat u will b bak but actually u r not…how could i still hav this fantasy? am i mad or crazy or problem wit my mind??? for those couple cherish what u hav now, its been like a phobia for me to get into another relationship, maybe i will be a bachelor for my whole life….lol…meet a person, whom juz purely my customer, but somehow he can juz manage to read by my look….his advice to me dun fell to much in gf n bf stuff….lol tats true but what can i do, i m human, i hav feeling…..feeling is hard to control….i ll try….not to think abt her…bless me……to fight this war, well i think this is my weakest part, a person feeling, no matter normal fren, closed buddy, gf…..well juz felt too deep…..xoxo

桃花…

I was told that if PIGGIES didn’t get a partner before Chinese New Year, then all those met after Chinese New Year would be 爛桃花… And then, I read something about star sign few days ago, saying PISCEANS are getting 爛桃花 too… So, at that point of time, I decided that this year will be a 桃花-less year for me, except for 爛桃花…

Honestly, it’s not that myself being superstitious or so, but I really think that it’s quite true in some ways… It’s only about 3 months after Chinese New Year, and there were more than enough of guys came and gone… It made me kinda confused and miserable at times, made me wonder what would happen next… Of course, there were some that I would never consider and also some that I was having some hope in… But, nothing happened…

Maybe, it’s really not the time for me… I shall not look, shall not wait, shall not hope… At least for this year… =)

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By the way, today was a good day for me!! I met my DEAR CHERYL again after… I seriously lost count on how many years we hadn’t met, it’s great to catch up with the girls sometimes… and also, accidentally met ZHANSHEN for a short while, to me, it’s kinda SURPRISE for us to not see each other for that long and also accidentally meeting him… It was not a very USUAL thing for the us to do in the past I would say, BUT it’s now the thing, it’s now the fact…