Plan is ruined…

I guess I am just too late to realise the changes for Australian residency requirements. It seems like my 2011 plan to go back to renew my PR and get myself a RRV is now ruined!

I just hate myself for ignorant, for being blinded for stupid decisions made! I really hate it when someone asks me “Why didn’t you stay for another few more months in order to be eligible to renew your PR?” I know, I feel stupid as well. And, I always thought that it was not a big deal, as I can still go back anytime for few months before 2012, when the PR expires. But now, things are no longer the same. Guess that my dream to go back to work for another year is gone!! =(

Midlife Crisis…

I think I am having this Midlife Crisis now… Or, is it just another EMO period of mine after so many happy events…

Everytime I tell myself to grow up, be an adult, think and act like one. But, I guess I am just too failed, I am still a kid, a stupid one. I am still the same old me who doesn’t seem to accept any unexpected negative happening in my life. Which is SAD!

I don’t know who is the angel and who is the devil, I don’t know how to judge, I don’t know how to treat people… Humans are the most dangerous creature on earth… It can be fake, it can be real, it can be fake and real at the same time…

Why is it so hard to just be a simple person? Someone who can live with a normal life, no dramas, no politics… Just do whatever…

I always tell myself that I want to be strong, I don’t care what people say about me, I don’t care what others do to me, I don’t expect anything from anyone, I want to be independent… But, in the end, I am just a dependent retard…

Please, I just want to be a nobody, just a simple person, I don’t need super attention, I don’t need so many fans or haters, I only need some people who can treat me fairly, neautral, I am happy!

I guess, my 2010 near year resolution will be: Be an adult!

November…

OMG, it’s November already! 2009 is coming to an end soon… Well, I had a great October!! Too many happy things happened!!

After the previous post about my best 10/10, then I started my 2 weeks of mandate holidays!! I spent one week to prepare for my cousin Teri and cousin-in-law Robi’s wedding on 18th October 2009. Helped out with some little things here and there, then busy hunting for dresses. IT WAS A SUPERB WEDDING!! Nicely done!! Then, I took a week for myself to meet up with friends, especially Ivess, my long lost high school mate. Also, spent some time with the cousins back from overseas. Then, on 31st October, went to Lai Meng’s 80th anniversary and saw many MANY primary school mates and teachers!! It was amazing!!

Besides, I went to 2 Tarot Cards readings during the 2 weeks off. Got some bad news for myself, but well, I will have to face it still, no matter what. And, please don’t tell me not to believe, because I went to TWO different ones, and they said the same things, so, not so coincident yea?

2 more months to 2010!! I guess, I have been happy overall in 2009, I am glad that I am back, to the place where I belong. =)

Start planning for Jan 2010 Bali trip and March 2010 HK trip… Can’t wait!! Oooooooooops, NO, I need to wait for the BONUS to be out first!! =P