Complicated + Bi…

I was told that I was complicated + BI by a friend of mine… Just because that I am OK with either staying at home or going out. I go out when someone asks me to and at the same time I have nothing else to do, or I would just stay home and do my things, for example, PPS, Richman Online, Googling… Well, under normal circumstances, I would not think of going out unless I have got no INTERNET!! Which means I can do nothing at home!! So, I guess when I am at home not going out, not because that I do not want to go out, but I am just UNWANTED, nobody dates me… HAHAHAHAH… And, being a lazy ass, I would not go out myself, as in transporting myself, I rather not go out when no transport is provided… UNLESS it is an important event where I can never miss… So, instead of the word “Complicated”, I would call myself “Flexible” instead…

As for the “Bi” thing… I think it can be quite true…

At some point of time, I thought that I should try to be with a GIRL for a change, who knows that I would like it better than being with a guy… I have a friend who is a BI, she has been together with both guys and girls, and she told me that she actually prefers girls over guys… Mainly because, girls know what a girl thinks, they know what you need, because girls are the same species… Perhaps, different species are not meant to be together? Just like, DOGS are not meant to be with CATS?

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Today, I went to an interesting place and thought that it was a great place, so that now I MIGHT have another new HOBBY? And, I was asked that, how would I spend my extra cash… OMG, what a tough question to answer, there are too many things that I would do with my extra cash.. Holidaying, buy a house, buy this buy that… So, I gave him an answer, SHOPPING… Which is VERY true, right? You have to shop for everything before paying, even for holidays, you have first shop around to survey…

In short, when you have the extra cash, you will know what to do with it AUTOMATICALLY… If you do not, please let me know, I can tell you how… =)

Theory…

2 years back, I learnt a theory from a friend, which I am still reminding myself about it from time to time…

NEVER assume that you have fallen for someone when you are sad… That would only mean that you have fallen for the happiness that you might not have while you are sad… Imagine, when you are feeling negative, and there comes some positives, that would turn you into BREAK EVEN… You might not be HAPPY afterall, only not sad anymore…

You are in love, when you are happier eventhough you are happy when you are alone, you are not dependent on anyone for your happiness…

But, things get harder when you are indenpende enough, you tend to expect more as you need more reasons to be happier…

Example, you are not independent, and thus you are happy when there is someone to be with you to go shopping, movie, dining… You are independent, and you enjoy doing thins alone where you do not need company, NOW, this person has to be able to give more than just these to make you happier…

Life is getting tougher…

The YOU, might not be YOU, but it must be ME…

Love Is Blind…

It is true that LOVE IS BLIND…

When I am in love with a dress, I will not care if I can fit in it, in fact I will buy it first and then tell myself that I will be able to fit in it ONE DAY…

When I like something, I will see it as a GOOD THING and ignoring all the bads, or even finding lame excuses to turn all the bads to goods…

When I like someone, no matter you telling me that he is the worst man in the world, I want to find it out myself… One is innocent until proven guilty…

And, when the POSITIVE LIKING > NEGATIVE LIKING, then everything is positive…

There comes ARGUMENTS or WARS when one likes and the other dislikes about the same thing, and they can never reach a mutual agreement, as what they believe in are different… It same goes to RELIGIONS…

Conclusion, if you like and I do not like, then no conversation shall be started…

話不投機,半局多

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Example 1…

I will never know how to communicate with someone who will forever thinks that my decision to come back to Malaysia was a wrong move, that I should be staying in Australia for whatever good reasons… And, to me, I came back for ONLY ONE GOOD REASON, that I am HAPPIER!! I do not care about other reasons…

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Example 2…

If you belive something is good and I believe something is not good, then please do not convince me…

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Not related to the above…

I have to stress out here that there were 2 HAPPY incidents happened on my birthday this year…

1. I received a GIFT!! *yeay* It had been a while since I last received a birthday gift from a FRIEND, not BF, not family… A box of limited edition GODIVA chocolates… *yumyumyum*

2. I found out that MAGICLAND has a FAN~ HAHAHA… Thanks for the support for years, and thanks for remembering my birthday although we do not know each other in person… THANK YOU!


Decision…

Finally, I had made another important decision of my life… It took me lots of courage to make up this mind, forgoing what I am having, paying compensation and getting myself ready to face uncertainties…

I guess, I have been in a life which is similar to no life, and it has been too routine till I can hardly feel myself, if I am still alive… So, taking up this challenge hopefully can reactivate myself, heading towards a happier life and definitely a better life!!

真…

看看周圍的人, 有多少個是真正的真, 有多少的真心…

人長得越大, 經歷得越多, 越會保護自己, 而逐漸變得假…

尤其是長大了, 結交朋友就更小心, 更多的懷疑…

當年那些純真的友情真值得懷念…

也曾聽說過, 職場上更不能有朋友…

我, 還算幸運吧…

遇到笨笨的張露娜…

也遇到了2個很真的安娣…

總是吵吵鬧鬧的, 不爽來不爽去的, 大呼小叫的…

但是這卻是最真, 最舒服的溝通方式…

沒有假裝, 沒有給臉…

很希望這是真正的真, 不再像其他的假的真, 一次&#2#21448;一次地讓我失望…

好朋友不須要多, 真心的幾個就夠了…

願, 你我繼續真下去… =)