KL vs Melbourne…

when i was walking on the street back from the library, i looked at everything on the street and enjoyed the cool wind, the peaceful city… and there came happening and happy scenes in kl in my mind… and i kept asking myself the same question – ‘why am i here?’ i really cant answer this with a good answer…

i was so eager to come here, hoping to get a new life here, a happy life with 100% freedom… do whatever i want… and i decided to forgo my lovely life in kl to look for another lovelier life in melbourne… melbourne is a nice place, peaceful, nice weather, friendly people… i have nice friends here, i have good time here… but then, all these are not making me a better life over here… i still prefer kl…

i dont like to be here actually… i miss my home… my parents… my buddies… my friends… i am so helpless here… i miss those times having fun with my friends, being a fool by doing so many stoopid things… being pampered by so many people who care about me… bullying my parents… crying my tears out and sharing my laughters with my friends… gossip around here and there… blablabla… i can now feel the warm weather in kl… it’s warm coz of many people surrouding me, protecting me, caring me…

living with my own, settling things myself, deciding so many decisions, take caring of myself, pittying myself, pampering myself, pretending to be tough person, pretending to be strong, pretending to be smart and independent… cannot let mommie and daddee know that i am so lousy, cannot let them worry about me… my god!! it’s so damn hard!! i am going crazy soon… i think i am not ready to be a proper adult yet, i still wanna enjoy my baby princess life… i know i have to be independent, but i dont like it i dont want to be one!!! can i always remain the same? i dont wanna grow up, i dont wanna face so many problems, i dont wanna think so much… i dont like to be an adult lar!!!! being an adult is so damn troublesome!! what the…

damn… should i go home? should i continue my studies in kl? should i leave melbourne? should i go back to my home sweet home? should i go back to hide myself under my big and warm roof? *miserable*

Survivor’s Law…

wow… it’s sunday man!! it’s 6th of june man!! 10 more days to go… damn, i am not ready yet!! help!! just after showered, really need to boost up everything to get back to my notes!!

hey, Survivor’s Law is good man!! this TVB series, damn nice!! the ending is pretty good although it’s expected… i really like BEN in that show, he can be sucha good lawyer, good friend, and also good in controlling his feelings… he is now my target, i gotta be just like him!! he likes someone, willing to do anything for her, but then knowing that his friend likes this girl and the girl likes his friend as well… but then, he still treating them as his very good friends, still liking the girl and helping her out anytime… respect man!! he is handling all cases so fairly, although he feels sad to against his good friends… he even can forget all the bad things that his best friend has done and help him, trust him… he is soOOoOOOoooOo nice man!! he is very cute and can joke so well… wow *sweet*… the ending is so warming, i smiled to myself when i was watching the ending just now… Ben finally can get together with his dream girl and, best friend is back to be a nice guy, their friendship has been upgraded!! so touching man…

wondering… whether sucha perfect guy existing in this world? hahaha… i am so touched by the way he deals with love problems… confess, when you think each other is meant be together and the correct one… keep, when you dont have this confidence and never try to spoil the friendship… if you like someone, it doesnt mean that you must be attached to him/her, always think for the overall ending… there might be a better ending if you both are not attached to each other… building own happiness by looking at the happiness appeared on his/her face… =)

Excuses…

oh gosh… i could feel that i am a bit fatter today!! why… i know!! coz i ate too much last night!! with this really delicious ABC soup cooked by Alice… oh man! with those potatoes, carrots, chicken… oops!! how sad…
and i went to stock up my cupboard with bread, eggs, packets of pasta, cheese… i am preparing my diet meals for this coming week!! yea… and i ate the ham+cheese pasta just now!! oh no… it’s so creamy… iisssh… nvm nvm… heheh, for one day okie? i will continue tomorrow… continue my intensive plan!! go go go~~
i was supposed to join my friend to study in melb uni library… but then… i am a little tired now man, and it’s so cold outside, i need a rest for TODAY, only TODAY!! it seems like i am giving too many excuses for the things that i have done!!
i was browsing someone’s blog just now, and i found this entry really interesting yet so true!! people are feeling so insecured these days, and i am not talking about anything else, it’s relationship between boys and girls… everyone is afraid of being rejected by the opposite sex… everyone is not being honest towards own feelings… everyone is hiding the true self… this is world going to be fulled of lies and dishonest people here and there!! just wondering… why cant people just voice up their feelings, speak out what’s in mind, do what they really wanna do, stop telling excuses, stop pretending, stop hiding… and try to be a true self BRAVELY… *dont understand why i cant…*

Feeling better…

wow!! finally i have done my one of my tests, presentation and assignment… yes yes!! feeling a bit released at last… but there is another test to go tomorrow… who cares, it’s just a MCQ test and… opened book… hahahahah… not so scared… but then… after tomorrow, it will be a goood start for me to study for my exam edi… good!! faster finish the exam lar!!! then i can relax edi…
but then that time i will have to be home alone man… my housemates will be going to sydney… then i gotta be alone… holy!! from now onwards, i gotta learn how to shower when i am alone edi… after this entry i am going to do so… 2 of them not at home… haiihzzz… be independent okie? okie! then i will gotta sit at home for… 2 weeks i guess to wait for my dearest fattiest cousin to come!! yes yes!! so that i wont be the fattest edi~~ lalalala~~~
by the way, i am now on diet!! yes, on diet… weight losing… hahahaha!! cannot laugh!! hahahaha… =P yea, at least i can do it better here than in kl man!! coz i dont have people cooking nice food for me everyday… i have been eating sandwiches most of the time and yea, i think… i am slightly slimmer now… hahaha… i could feel that my jeans are not that tight anymore… =P yes… i will continue on it… for the whole exam period, sandwiches + exam stress!! good combination!! *wish me luck*

Stressed…

haiihzz… really bored of doing anymore modification lar… just let it be lar… kinda nice also mar… hehehe…
oh well… first of all, i must thank my dearest wheimeng for helping me to get this website, although he is stooopid, still he is my best buddy!! yea yea… *muacks* i used to hate him a lot a lot during high school… especially form 1!!! surprisingly… he is one of my precious buddies now… wahahhaa… how unlucky man!!!
damn stressed weik!!! i have never stressed like this before man!!! cant sleep well, then the brain keeps thinking about the same thing anytime anywhere… wahlaoo… luckily i still have this baby for me to destress…
i will try my best to figure out how to make this baby to look prettier and prettier…!!!