2nd CCRIS…

Things seemed to be better today, I have got my second CCRIS… Although it doesn’t mean anything, at least, it’s a start…

And I seemed to have some FUNNY luck today… There were 3 funny customers that I talked to… 1 talked to me for 45 minutes about LIFE, 1 talked to me for half an hour about how he started his business… Then, the last one even funnier, he was talking to me while cutting vegetables to cook for his daughter, and he even invited me to go over to try it… HAHAHHAHA… CUTE UNCLES I must say…

It’s kinda demotivating when you are still not up to standard after you have been trying hard to do something, and expecting to get better… ARGH… Maybe I should just concentrate on what I am supposed to do…

New Job…

Yeap, ended my second week in new company. Basically, what I did for the first week was TRAINING, yes, 5 days training. Then, started the ACTUAL working days this week. Everything seems to be OK, not that difficult, not that easy neither… HAHA… I think, LOTS OF LUCK are what I really need now…

If you still wondering what I am doing now, I am now in Price Solutions, under Standard Chartered as Business Installment Executive. My product is the Business Installment Loan, I only deal with BOSSES, I don’t deal with small potatoes… =P

Not sure how I am going to survive in this job, but I am glad that I am making a move, having a chance to TRY and it’s a new challenge… Will see when will I write another post about me taking up another new job again…

New Life…

Finally, I have this time to update my lil blog here after wanting to blog about so many things for so long.

First of all, the decision that I mentioned in my previous post was that I quitted my job in Citi on 2th April, which was last Friday, my last day there. Well, I didn’t want anyone to know about my leave, but apparently there were many broadcasters in the department and I had no idea how did they get to know about the NEWS. So, the only thing I could HIDE was my actual last day. But, there were A FEW who knew about it as I discussed with them about this new change, and also because they were my team members so they had to know in order to plan for the work allocation. I actually started to clear off my things and bringing them home 2 weeks before. On my last day, I was supposed to have breakfast with those few who knew about it but then I got a SURPRISE that there were more people than I expected. Thanks to PIA who pandai-pandai went to tell those people and that really pissed me off by spoiling my plan of LEAVING QUIETLY. I was so angry that I told him off real bad at the cafĂ©. I understand her intention but not when I told all of them NEVER TRY TO DO THIS for like gazillions times. I didn’t want to create any drama and most importantly, I didn’t want to CRY, which I knew I would if it ended like any normal last day + photos taking + farewell. However, I still managed to leave quietly by leaving my bag to Terry, who was in another department, and with my pillows on the desk and also with my computer on, and pretended to walk around without the intention to leave. But, I left. Then, I texted Pia my password in order to help me to log off my computer. HAHA, SMART HEY! Who cares about being caught for password sharing while that was my last day?

And then, I actually went back on Saturday to pack some leftover things and also to distribute my farewell gifts to them, which then later commented by YY *one of my ex-colleagues in Citi* as a MICE ACT and NOT YING!! *chehhhhzzzz* BAH, I really miss those lame people!! They must be missing me too and I guess the office must be damn quiet now!!

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Yes!!! Finally I get to work part time!! I have always wanting to work part time for FUN. As I think that my fulltime job was too dull and boring and most importantly I didn’t know what to do during any free time. As many may know, I am already sick of those normal-weekend-routine-activities like eating, drinking, movie-ing, shopping… AND OF COURSE I NEED MORE MONEY!! To buy more BAGS!! I can no longer afford to buy bags with my MALAYSIAN SALARY * now I MISS MY PAY IN AUSSIE DOLLARS*!! But then I didn’t get to work all these whiles because I was so damn busy with my previous job that I had no flexibility in time. Imagine, I worked almost 9am – 8pm everyday and sometimes even up to 10.30pm and had to be ready to work on Saturdays and even public holidays when required. That was really NO LIFE!!

Now, I got myself this COOL part time job, a FUN JOB and with good pay too!! I am still learning, hopefully I won’t disappoint all my SUPPORTERS, be it mentally or physically.

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Today is my 3rd day of this 1 week training thing for my new role. And then I will have to start working next week onwards. It’s kinda scary though. Well, wish me luck!

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And, I have been very depressed these few days, as MY BLARDEE MODEM IS DEAD!! And, stupid STREAMYX is taking forever to process my upgrade, so that I am still waiting for my new modem. The life without internet is so sad!! I can now online with my bro’s MAXIS when he is out, so poor thing. Or, I would have to use my iphone to do internet tethering, and be surprised when the bill comes. *wooohooooo*

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Dear Kor,

Hope you get to read this *if you are still reading*.

This blog has quite a BIG PART of you in here. You appeared in here quite a few times with all your advices, your help and even your GIFTS throughout these years. KOR and student exchange are still safe with me. You saw me fall, you helped me grow. I really really do appreciate you for everything and really thankful that I have met you in my life because I am just a random ABNORMAL person on earth, yet you have showered me with unconditional love and care, be there for me whenever I needed you. It’s amazing how we met, how we shared our lives with hundreds of emails, how we got this close… Everything about US is just so unbelievable. I may not be able to do anything for you but I hope that you treasure this friendship, and will still continue. =)

Complicated + Bi…

I was told that I was complicated + BI by a friend of mine… Just because that I am OK with either staying at home or going out. I go out when someone asks me to and at the same time I have nothing else to do, or I would just stay home and do my things, for example, PPS, Richman Online, Googling… Well, under normal circumstances, I would not think of going out unless I have got no INTERNET!! Which means I can do nothing at home!! So, I guess when I am at home not going out, not because that I do not want to go out, but I am just UNWANTED, nobody dates me… HAHAHAHAH… And, being a lazy ass, I would not go out myself, as in transporting myself, I rather not go out when no transport is provided… UNLESS it is an important event where I can never miss… So, instead of the word “Complicated”, I would call myself “Flexible” instead…

As for the “Bi” thing… I think it can be quite true…

At some point of time, I thought that I should try to be with a GIRL for a change, who knows that I would like it better than being with a guy… I have a friend who is a BI, she has been together with both guys and girls, and she told me that she actually prefers girls over guys… Mainly because, girls know what a girl thinks, they know what you need, because girls are the same species… Perhaps, different species are not meant to be together? Just like, DOGS are not meant to be with CATS?

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Today, I went to an interesting place and thought that it was a great place, so that now I MIGHT have another new HOBBY? And, I was asked that, how would I spend my extra cash… OMG, what a tough question to answer, there are too many things that I would do with my extra cash.. Holidaying, buy a house, buy this buy that… So, I gave him an answer, SHOPPING… Which is VERY true, right? You have to shop for everything before paying, even for holidays, you have first shop around to survey…

In short, when you have the extra cash, you will know what to do with it AUTOMATICALLY… If you do not, please let me know, I can tell you how… =)

Theory…

2 years back, I learnt a theory from a friend, which I am still reminding myself about it from time to time…

NEVER assume that you have fallen for someone when you are sad… That would only mean that you have fallen for the happiness that you might not have while you are sad… Imagine, when you are feeling negative, and there comes some positives, that would turn you into BREAK EVEN… You might not be HAPPY afterall, only not sad anymore…

You are in love, when you are happier eventhough you are happy when you are alone, you are not dependent on anyone for your happiness…

But, things get harder when you are indenpende enough, you tend to expect more as you need more reasons to be happier…

Example, you are not independent, and thus you are happy when there is someone to be with you to go shopping, movie, dining… You are independent, and you enjoy doing thins alone where you do not need company, NOW, this person has to be able to give more than just these to make you happier…

Life is getting tougher…

The YOU, might not be YOU, but it must be ME…

Love Is Blind…

It is true that LOVE IS BLIND…

When I am in love with a dress, I will not care if I can fit in it, in fact I will buy it first and then tell myself that I will be able to fit in it ONE DAY…

When I like something, I will see it as a GOOD THING and ignoring all the bads, or even finding lame excuses to turn all the bads to goods…

When I like someone, no matter you telling me that he is the worst man in the world, I want to find it out myself… One is innocent until proven guilty…

And, when the POSITIVE LIKING > NEGATIVE LIKING, then everything is positive…

There comes ARGUMENTS or WARS when one likes and the other dislikes about the same thing, and they can never reach a mutual agreement, as what they believe in are different… It same goes to RELIGIONS…

Conclusion, if you like and I do not like, then no conversation shall be started…

話不投機,半局多

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Example 1…

I will never know how to communicate with someone who will forever thinks that my decision to come back to Malaysia was a wrong move, that I should be staying in Australia for whatever good reasons… And, to me, I came back for ONLY ONE GOOD REASON, that I am HAPPIER!! I do not care about other reasons…

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Example 2…

If you belive something is good and I believe something is not good, then please do not convince me…

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Not related to the above…

I have to stress out here that there were 2 HAPPY incidents happened on my birthday this year…

1. I received a GIFT!! *yeay* It had been a while since I last received a birthday gift from a FRIEND, not BF, not family… A box of limited edition GODIVA chocolates… *yumyumyum*

2. I found out that MAGICLAND has a FAN~ HAHAHA… Thanks for the support for years, and thanks for remembering my birthday although we do not know each other in person… THANK YOU!


Decision…

Finally, I had made another important decision of my life… It took me lots of courage to make up this mind, forgoing what I am having, paying compensation and getting myself ready to face uncertainties…

I guess, I have been in a life which is similar to no life, and it has been too routine till I can hardly feel myself, if I am still alive… So, taking up this challenge hopefully can reactivate myself, heading towards a happier life and definitely a better life!!