PMS Again!!

Well, although my PMS might come more than once a month or few times a month, it’s still pretty torturing, because this is not the normal PHYSICAL PMS, but my abnormal MENTAL PMS.

I am always aimless in life, and nothing really making me happy. M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E.

And, the person that always puts me down is still the same person, after this long, MYSELF. My imagination has been lying to me about everything, and I have been innocently believing and hoping. But, ALL FAILED. Thus, the disappointments, countless.

I guess, I have not been blogging much, because there isn’t interesting thing, and I do not like this new look of my blog, BUT I am lazy and not having much time to create a new good look for it. Will leave it as it is for now, to suit my mood, boring looking blog and its boring owner. HAHAHA.

Having too much in mind, no chance to pour out, no listener, not knowing where to start. Too much, and my mind is going to blow up soon. I can see the disaster coming, the volcano is going to erupt soon.

I need a good cry, a good drunken moment, a good pour out.

Maybe I need a BF. But, I am not ready to get one yet. DAMN.

Plan is ruined…

I guess I am just too late to realise the changes for Australian residency requirements. It seems like my 2011 plan to go back to renew my PR and get myself a RRV is now ruined!

I just hate myself for ignorant, for being blinded for stupid decisions made! I really hate it when someone asks me “Why didn’t you stay for another few more months in order to be eligible to renew your PR?” I know, I feel stupid as well. And, I always thought that it was not a big deal, as I can still go back anytime for few months before 2012, when the PR expires. But now, things are no longer the same. Guess that my dream to go back to work for another year is gone!! =(

Midlife Crisis…

I think I am having this Midlife Crisis now… Or, is it just another EMO period of mine after so many happy events…

Everytime I tell myself to grow up, be an adult, think and act like one. But, I guess I am just too failed, I am still a kid, a stupid one. I am still the same old me who doesn’t seem to accept any unexpected negative happening in my life. Which is SAD!

I don’t know who is the angel and who is the devil, I don’t know how to judge, I don’t know how to treat people… Humans are the most dangerous creature on earth… It can be fake, it can be real, it can be fake and real at the same time…

Why is it so hard to just be a simple person? Someone who can live with a normal life, no dramas, no politics… Just do whatever…

I always tell myself that I want to be strong, I don’t care what people say about me, I don’t care what others do to me, I don’t expect anything from anyone, I want to be independent… But, in the end, I am just a dependent retard…

Please, I just want to be a nobody, just a simple person, I don’t need super attention, I don’t need so many fans or haters, I only need some people who can treat me fairly, neautral, I am happy!

I guess, my 2010 near year resolution will be: Be an adult!

November…

OMG, it’s November already! 2009 is coming to an end soon… Well, I had a great October!! Too many happy things happened!!

After the previous post about my best 10/10, then I started my 2 weeks of mandate holidays!! I spent one week to prepare for my cousin Teri and cousin-in-law Robi’s wedding on 18th October 2009. Helped out with some little things here and there, then busy hunting for dresses. IT WAS A SUPERB WEDDING!! Nicely done!! Then, I took a week for myself to meet up with friends, especially Ivess, my long lost high school mate. Also, spent some time with the cousins back from overseas. Then, on 31st October, went to Lai Meng’s 80th anniversary and saw many MANY primary school mates and teachers!! It was amazing!!

Besides, I went to 2 Tarot Cards readings during the 2 weeks off. Got some bad news for myself, but well, I will have to face it still, no matter what. And, please don’t tell me not to believe, because I went to TWO different ones, and they said the same things, so, not so coincident yea?

2 more months to 2010!! I guess, I have been happy overall in 2009, I am glad that I am back, to the place where I belong. =)

Start planning for Jan 2010 Bali trip and March 2010 HK trip… Can’t wait!! Oooooooooops, NO, I need to wait for the BONUS to be out first!! =P

One of the best days!!

10th October 2009, 10/10, the best rated day ever!! The full 24 hours!!

My best day started at 1205am with a GOOD movie, Rebellion at Pavilion with Adwin, David, Sunny, Christ and Kethy. It was a good movie, a very unpredictable ending!! Then a yumcha session at Jalan Alor. Arrived at home at 4am and had a SMALL SLEEP till 8am then woke up to work for OT.

At 1pm, I left work and headed to North Point, Mid Valley to catch up with the girls, ChewLeng, Kiew and Toh Wah at Ninja Jones. It was Kiew’s birthday, we girls meet up few times a year on each’s birthday. Ninja Jones was a good place. The food was pretty good, or at least I was happy with food and it balanced up my hate for Japanese food since the day before, where I had the suckiest Japanese food at YO! Sushi!! BANNED!! And for Ninja Jones, I will definitely be back AGAIN!! Especially for the BLACK COD FISH!! DAMNNNNNNN~~~~!!!

And after the lunch, I went to The Gardens to meet up with Mommie and brother to do some shopping!! AND YES I GOT SHOES!!!! HEELS!! Buahahhahahahahaha~~ I don’t remember when was the last time I bought my last pair of shoes, AGES AGO I AM VERY SURE!!

I even skipped dinner to rush home to get myself prepared, had a shower and had to get myself ready for the next round. The best round of the day. Whei Meng’s proposal to Lisan!! The official one!! All of us gathered at Somo, Mont Kiara to PRETEND to have an usual chill out session on this couple’s 6 months anniversary. Then, Lisan’s favorite song was being played in the background, Whei Meng came out with a big bouquet of LILYS and of course the most important little box with his knee down on the ground. Lisan couldn’t help it, the surprise was too surprise and touching, she teared, tears of joy. CONGRATULATIONS MR AND MRS WONG!!! The first one is our gang!! We had bottles of champagne, red wines, most importantly MOSCATO!! And this very expensive whisky, Macallan!! The session ended with a few drunkards, with some possible scandalous going on, and I headed to the next session.

Yumcha with Terry. Poor little boy was having a bad day, nobody was free to accompany him, he was down and sad. He actually asked me to go for desserts before I went to Somo, but obviously I couldn’t make it due to the very special event. So, I made it up for him after that. Steven’s Corner at OUG till about 5am.

I am proud that I fully utilized my 24 hours of 10/10 perfectly!

~~~~~~~~ PICTURESSSSSSSSSS! ~~~~~~~~~~


The Ninja’s food…


4 of us of course… =)


YEAY!! NEW SHOES!! NEW HEELS!!


The heavenly Durian Flo~ And my brother, Timothy was enjoying it~


The proposal~ Mr and Mrs Wong~


Highlighst of the night!!

Missing The Past…

I am not here to say that I am not enjoying my life now, so that I miss my past. I seriously love my life now, love living at home with family, love going to work with a bunch of nice people, love my job, love the friends around. But, I still my the olden days.

I guess my life is too routine, there is no surprise.

What do I miss most? Obviously, my drunken crazy days. Bacardi 151s, Tequilas, ABCs, Illusions… I guess I miss my FREEDOM! To do just anything that I want without worrying that someone might know, someone might see…

Just randomly missing the random days with random fun together with random people… My random freedom!

Something has been running my mind, should I or should I not to go back to my old lifestyle…

The Magical Moment is Back!!

It was a great effort to make this work again! The upgrading was so complicated to an IT CACATED PIG like me, those codes are just like alien language to me, but now WE ARE BACK!! A big thank you to AMIRUL, superb support from UltraUnix.net!!

Well, life is as usual, work and home are the standard routines. But, I am lucky enough to have found a new group of people who are fun and nice to hangout with recently. I think, I somehow have this weird LUCK that I can click easily with new people and then get close really quickly. Then, like what the phrase says, easy come easy go. People around me come and go easily, those who stay don’t really stay too, sometimes. But hey, who cares right, as I always say, the future is so unpredictable, might as well just enjoy the current happiness to the max!!!!!!!

The Bukit Merah trip with 11 people was a great great trip. Fun and new friends, and not to forget, DRAMAS too!! Waiting for the next trip!! *wooohoooooo*

And another NEWS to OUR GANG, someone is getting married, FINALLY the first one!! And, a surprise I would say. Well, I shall wait for more details about it.

Gatherings Weekend…

I had a great weekend I must admit, a GATHERINGS weekend! Busy and fun!!

Went to Phuture with the CHKL gang to celebrate WheiMeng’s birthday… SO MANY people were there, damn fun!! It was like a MINI CHKL gathering… Then, I managed to pull Adwin and gang to go there as well… But Daniel asked me to go and his phone’s battery was dead and he didn’t come to look for me!! MA DE!! To be honest, that was the BEST PHUTURE NIGHT EVER!!! Loving it so so so much!!

Then, met up with MunYee and Jamy for lunch on Sunday… Then, met up with the Melbourne-Lai Meng gang for dinner as well… HAHAHHAHAHA… We are slowly moving the gang back to KL!! Although Audrey and YeeBing were only back for holidays… BUT, they will be back soon, I HOPE!! Glad to have so many people around again!! =)

BUT, damn it… Facebook is killing me!! I have been TRYING to upload those pictures since last night, but the error is annoying the hell out of me!! ARRGGGGHHHH…

I have to upload them!! ISH!!

Jakarta…

Well, it’s a very LAST SECOND decision, Cheryl called me in the afternoon, and had to decide within 10 minutes, and then had to ask for permission to apply for days off… And, yes we are leaving to Jakarta soon…

But after that impulsive decision, I started to think more… About the bombing, H1N1, kidnap, got lost, unable to communicate… I became so worried… Further more, the 2 unknown guys that coming along, they are Cheryl’s friends, but I don’t know them… The uneasy feeling… Then, I started forwarding out uncountable SMSes to possible and impossible people to ask them if they would want to join the trip, until a few of them got back to me by asking me if the message was sent to the wrong people… I was just so desperate and just wanted to randomly got at least someone to go with me, at least, that makes me feel safer… But, in the end, there was only one interested one, but Cheryl told me not to, because one more person makes things not so convenient…

Well…

Oh, and I saw Calvin Fong at Daidomon while I was having dinner with Tien Sheng… It was a surprise eh, OH BY THE WAY MR CALVIN FONG, WHERE IS MY PRADA? Ish… And, ER, I don’t think the Daidomon is good… Not going there again…

Anyway, wish us good luck and will be back safely in one piece… Hopefully that I will be updating this blog with a great Jakarta trip…

Flying off soon… I guess… I will be back at home again…