HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!

YEAY!! It’s another year again!! It’s a new life for me as well!! Wishing everyone a better year!!
But, I think I started my NEW YEAR pretty nicely… *HAHAHAHA* But maybe not for my friends, not for the people around our table, not for the club for sure… Sorry for the MESS… Sorry for the trouble… And sorry for being so heavy, it would be better IF IF IF I was SLIM!! HAHAHAHAHA… Not easy to carry me around… =P
Then, I want to declare IT WAS NOT MY FAULT AFTERALL!! STUPID GABY!!
Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!! Everything will be better this year!! Nomore economy crisis!!

Life is BORING but NOT SAD…

HAHA, I know, this is kind of contradicting… But, that’s what I am feeling it… It is boring, as in I haven’t been doing anything interesting, still the same old HOBBY, staying at home lazing around… But, I am actually not feeling DOWN or SAD about it…

I guess maybe I have learnt how to LET GO… Not to hope for so much, not to expect so much… Life seems to be better…

OR, I am already NUMB about everything, nomore feeling for anything, nothing actually excites me anymore… 心如止水… HAHAHAHHAHA…

Ah well… Let it flow…

Merry Christmas!!

Well, this Christmas was a good one for me… At least, I have made up my mind… I finally know what to do next… And, I met a group of new people, thanks for the night!!

Guess, I am ready to welcome the SUPER new chapter of my life… With everything NEW!! Of course, a NEW BETTER LIFE!! Nomore looking backward, nomore living in the past…

Moodie…

Well, first of all, ZOE please don’t kill me!! I am just not in the mood to do tags… Well, will do it when I am in a better mood… Sorry babe!

Moodie Moody Moodie Moody…

I just can’t believe that I am in this same SH*T again!! After so many years… I really lost count on how many times I have actually fallen for this SAME GUY!! RIDICULOUS I would say!!

I need to put a STOP, a forever STOP to this!! Nomore torturing me with the same thing over and over again PUHLEASE~~!!!!

If you want to help me, can you please tell me should I actually CONFESS for the first and the last time? And then I guess after that, I will feel so bad to face him and then I will have the courage to let go indefinitely?

Well, I guess the purpose of this confession is actually to HURT myself to destroy my own face, so that I will have a reason to leave…

I’m Glad…

That I have met such a wonderful person… I am hoping that he is happy and will be happy as well… It’s a shame that he is not mine… Still, I am glad that I have known such person in my life, and have seen a real nice person… A person that I adore that much…

He has all the reasons to be my perfect man…

But of course, I don’t have the luck to have him…

I wished that I had done more to preserve our memories…

But, it’s all over now…

I wish for his happiness, and I wish for myself to be able to see other guys beside him… Because I can only let go when he has found his happiness…

My Journey…

WELL!! Finally I am safe in MALAYSIA!! WOOOHOOOOO… After so so so so much of… NONSENSE!!!

Firstly, was the person at Melbourne Airport that questioned about my stay in Singapore, as I couldn’t prove that I would be leaving in a day or two, and they actually pretty strict with the visa thing about Malaysians staying in there for more than 30 days…

Then was suffering ALL THE TIME with my overweight SELF… To make this clear, I am not that overweight myself, but I was carrying so many things ON ME, I wore a pair of jeans, then with another denim skirt, then I wore my heaviest PLATFORM shoes, I wore like maybe 5 necklaces and 5 bracelets on me, I had my Nintendo DS Lite in my pocket, my palm in my pocket, my coin purses in my pocket as well… OK, I must say I LOOKED damn WEIRD with that STYLE… But no, that’s not the latest trend, but to help keeping my luggages not too overweight, so I had to keep all the weight on my body!! It was so hard to even WALK!!

Right, I went to the toilet in the flight, I THOUGHT I locked the door, but actually I DIDN’T until this guy opened the door!! WTF!! Then arrived in Singapore Airport, I changed my simcard to the new MAXIS simcard, but it was asking for PIN CODE, I was like huhhhhhhhhh… Mommie gave me a simcard with a pin code? So I had to go get COINS to make calls to her using a public phone, first call, she told me the pin code was the default one, printed on the simcard… OK MY BAD, I didn’t see that!! Hung up. Then after that, I saw “Emergency calls only”… *speechless* I called her again but she couldn’t tell me WHY… So in the end, I had to put back my Optus simcard in, and luckily there were still some credits enough for roaming calls…

Then went to claim luggages… My flight number wasn’t not on the TV so I was directed to the unclaimed baggages by a guy, but I couldn’t see my luggage there!!! Then he asked for my boarding pass to check the luggage number, I went like WHAT, you still need the boarding pass after BOARDED the flight? I lost it!! Fine, I was so so so worried!! Then I went to report lost baggage… Then this lady told me my luggage SHOULD BE still on the BELT 16!!!! OK, so I went there… AND FOUND IT!!! Happily taking it and the handle was broken at that point of time… I was really PISSED, ANNOYED, ANGRY, FRUSTRATED at that time…

And luckily all the bads ended there… I was worried that DarDar gonna FFK me for the worst situation!! But luckily he didn’t!! He showed up, in fact he was there an hour earlier… The Singapore trip was pretty alright, besides we were only looking at different shopping malls all the time… And had a pretty satisfying Japanese buffet, at Suntec City… Then the next day we took a bus back to KL… I was so worried that my bad luck would bring something bad to the journey, but THANK GOD, I got home safe in one piece!!

And my surprise arrival for my parents was kinda FAILED, I arrived at 1230am at home, woke them up to open the door for me… Then what I got was… “I was sleeping lar”… And after that… “I am going back to sleep”… WAHLAO… =( But at least I have finally done a surprise arrival after so many years of trying…

In short, my flight was pretty great, as I had great people sitting beside me, 2 nice men, and I think they were gay… But yea, they were so nice, they helped me with my luggages, was telling me if I needed them to help me to reduce my WEIGHT… And they kept offering me food, then even helped me to QUEUE!! As in, I was walking so slow, so if I were to queue on my own, it would be at the very end, but they asked me to join them at the front!! HOW NICE!!

OF COURSE, the greatest thank you goes to DarDar, thanks for really putting in efforts to come all the way from KL to Singapore to babysit me home… I felt so bad that I kept thinking that he would FFK me… And then last thank goes to Jeff, DarDar’s friend, to pick us up from the drop off point and sent me home safely…

And now I am starting my new life in KL… =)

FARKING STRESSED!!

STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 more days to go… But I am not READY YET!!! My room is still like a war zone, everything is everywhere!!

And I am still stressed about the $135 gift card for David Jones!! There is seriously nothing to get from there!!! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

And, I am thinking, can I just GIVE UP! Can I not go back… =(

FRUSTRATED!!!

Facebook…

Well, I have a principle, that I will only add people that I know in my FaceBook… But this time… I rejected a friend request from someone that I KNOW and SUPER CLOSE TO!!!

For the reason…

SHE IS MY MOMMY!!! WTF!!!

I was so shocked when I saw the friend request… And I was telling myself, NO WAY I AM GOING TO CONFIRM THIS REQUEST!! HAHAHHAHAHAHA… Wahlao, imagine IF I have her in my friends list, then she will start spying on my everything… Then I will have no privacy at all!!

Sorry lar ANN CHIN, you are just not my FRIEND… =P

Keeper…

THANK YOU!!! Well, it might be a bit tiring for you as you had to adjust the LEVEL and lots of explanations in order for me to understand you… Thanks for the efforts…

Glad to have a friend like you!! A gem, a keeper!! Don’t worry, I will learn how to appreciate your HIGH-NESS… =P

And I HONESTLY *your word* hope that I won’t be the one that makes you tired of guiding all the time… =)

Well, let’s wait to see if my decision actually disappoints you or not, while I still don’t know how to make up my mind at the moment… Still lost, still confused… Like a SOTONG… HAHAHHAHAHAHHA…

Lastly, don’t ever think that I don’t appreciate you lar!! I DO!!

It’ Complicated…

It seems like it’s a trend that so many people are having their status as “It’s complicated”… Wonder who was the first person who invented this status… Is that even a STATUS?

I thought of changing mine too… But then, I was thinking, my status has always been complicated ALL THE FREAKING TIME!! I am not even sure whether I am confusing myself, or those people are confusing me, or it’s really complicated… I don’t have a clue…

WELL, 12 more days to go… Hotel booked! Things not packed! And still worried about the trip… Take it easy, I have both PLAN A and PLAN B ready, so… Should be fine!! =)